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Fic: Between the Covers for zeldadestry

Title: Between the Covers
Author: deiareads
Recipient: zeldadestry
Rating: PG-13
Highlight for Warnings: *none *
Word Count: 2051
Summary: What lies between the covers of Remus's books
Author's notes: Many beta thanks to molsymo.



Harry was barely awake when he heard the knock on his door. With his children staying at Hogwarts for the holidays, he and Ginny decided to stay late in bed, their only commitment for the day being dinner at the Burrow that evening. As he opened the door, he was surprised to see his godson struggling with a heavy bag and looking awkward at his doorstep. What caught Harry’s attention, however, was Teddy’s light brown hair, so like Remus's; it was always a sign that he was a little melancholy about his parents.

Harry smiled at his godson, "Come on in, Teddy."

Teddy returned the smile wanly, shouldering his bag and moving past Harry, "Hi, Harry. Sorry to bother you so early in the morning."

"You're never a bother and it's not that early," said Harry leading his godson to the kitchen. He started to make some tea then turned to face the young man while the water boiled, "you seem a little preoccupied. Is there something wrong?"

Teddy looked down at the bag he had been clutching to his chest, "Remember the books you gave me when I was fifteen? You said they were my dad's books you found in his room at Grimmauld Place and you had saved them for me." At Harry's nod he continued, speaking quickly, as if by doing so the words would come easier. "I don't think they belonged only to Dad. I was going through them when I was packing and this fell out of one of the books." He opened the bag and took out the first book inside. Around the middle of it there was a small note, yellowed with time in Sirius's handwriting.

Harry's hand shook as he took the note. He hadn't seen anything from his godfather in so long, this little remainder made the memory of the man hurt just a little bit stronger. The words, though, were something he didn't expect.

"Can you believe this git, Moony? I bet he never saw a real vampire or he wouldn't think they were that sexy. If they asked me I could tell with authority that werewolves are the sexy ones."

***************

Sirius had been watching Remus read the book for the past twenty minutes. He knew he was close to find his note and was waiting for the blush to rise in his lover's face. They had started leaving notes for each other back in sixth year. Their friendship still was a bit strained then and Sirius found it easier to keep contact through notes. They had always swapped books between them, knowing the other’s tastes and it had turned into a habit of recommending what they thought the other would like. He remembered the first time Remus found his note. He looked at him surprised and after a few moments nodded. In the note Sirius had asked if Remus thought the main character should be so quick to forgive his friend for a mistake he made. They both knew, of course, that he was asking was much more than an opinion about a book, and at Remus's nod, Sirius had started to forgive himself as well.

And there’s the blush, Sirius smiled to himself. No matter how many notes they had exchanged, Remus still wasn't used to compliments. Sirius had always thought it endearing. He took one of the feet that was cradled in his lap and kissed it, noting how Remus's eyes stopped moving. He was waiting for Sirius’ next move or lack thereof. The kiss on the calf earned him a look from his lover, half anticipation, half exasperation. Now that he had Remus's attention it was quite easy to pry the book from his hands and pounce. He did have a point to make after all.

***************

Harry looked up at Teddy not knowing what to say.

"There are notes in all the books I looked. Most of them are from Sirius, but some are from Dad," he said as he went back to the bag, pulling out another note out of a book and handing it to Harry.

"I bet you're loving this, aren't you? If I didn't know better I'd say you read this before and that's why you gave it to me. I have to confess that the leather trousers are very distracting and maybe it's time I let you convince me to ride the bike with you."

***************

Remus was exhausted after yet another day pouring over heavy tomes at the Order Headquarters. The only thing he wanted was to soak in a bath and sleep for ten hours.

At least that was what he thought he wanted.

He walked into his bedroom and was greeted by Sirius looking at himself in the mirror. This was nothing new, his lover was notorious for being vain, but what made Remus rethink his plans were the leather trousers.

Sirius felt more than saw Remus's eyes burning his skin. “Found your note. Do you think this meet your expectations?”

Remus swallowed hard and walked to Sirius, his hands automatically settling on his lover's arse, feeling how the smooth material molded the body perfectly.

“Yeah,” Remus answered breathlessly and leaned over to capture Sirius's lips, but his lover wouldn't let him.

He growled in frustration and saw Sirius grinning cheekily at him. “Not so fast, Moony. You owe me a ride in the bike. Here,” he continued, hRemus a jacket that was resting in the chair near the mirror, “wear this. It's cold outside.”

Remus looked at him incredulous, “Now?”

“Of course.” Sirius narrowed his eyes at him. “I know you, Moony. If I let you have your way with me now, it'll be ages until you get anywhere near the bike again.”

Remus wouldn't be deterred, though, and pressed his lips to his lover's throat, tracing a path until finding his earlobe. “Are you sure I can't convince you?”

“Huh?”

Remus grinned knowing it wouldn't take much to change Sirius's mind. A few well placed kisses and caresses later the dark haired man forgot entirely about the bike.

***************

"There are some…" Teddy started having a hard time finding the words, "some of them are more intimate." The tips of his hair turned red as he looked down. A few minutes later he chanced a look at Harry. In his eyes Harry could read the questions he had and for the first time Harry didn't know the answers himself.

"There is one about you." Teddy whispered when the silence became too much. Harry's breath caught in his throat, as yet another note was handed to him.

"If I had any doubts Harry has you wrapped around his little finger, now they're gone. I think we'll need another shelf for all the fairytales you bought for him. You'd have made a wonderful father, Sirius. Makes me wish we could… Well, we'll have all the sprogs from James and Peter to spoil and that's great, too, right?"

***************

Sirius had been pacing the living room for the past half an hour. He didn't know if he made the right decision or if Remus would be livid with him.

He looked around again making sure he hadn't forgotten anything. At the sound of the door opening he felt his heart start to race and cursed himself for being so impulsive.

It was done now and he'd have to deal with it.

Remus walked into their flat with a broad smile on his face, “Padfoot, you'll never believe who I ran into...” but at seeing Sirius’s apprehensive face he stopped. His eyes narrowed and he started again deceptively calm, “Whadid you do, Sirius?”

Sirius grinned at him, but it was clear the grin was forced, “I thought about what you said in the note you wabout Harry. About how you thought I'd make a good father,” Sirius bit his lips trying to find the best words, “I think you'd be brilliant, Moony. It made me realize how much I wanted to give you that, but we can't even adopt a baby.” He sighed, frustrated against the unfairness, “I know it's not even remotely the same and that I didn't consult you first, but it was supposed to be a surprise, so I couldn't really tell you, could I? I just think it'd be--”

“Sirius,” Remus interrupted amusedly, crouching on the floor and picking up a little white kitten that had been pawing his trousers for the past few moments. “Is this why you're so worked up?”

“I... Yeah... Well, yes. Are you... I mean... is this all right?” Sirius looked both hopeful and frightened.

“Will you help taking care of him?” Remus asked seriously, although his eyes were alight with love and warmth.

“Of course, Moony.” Sirius answered eagerly, “I already bought food, a litter box, and some toys. The vet said he's vaccinated and gave me a list of things he can and can't eat and other tips on how to best care for him.”

By the time Sirius was finished, Remus was smiling at him fondly, “Then it's all right. More than, actually. Thank you, Sirius.”

This time the grin on Sirius's lips was real and infectious. He closed the distance between them and put an arm around Remus's waist, nuzzling his neck before looking at their new kitten. “We'll need to name him.”

“ Yeah. Can’t think of anything though. Do you have something in mind?” Remus asked softly, stroking the cat whom appeared to have fallen asleep in his arms.

“No. I was actually hoping you would.”

“Well, I don't think he'll mind being nameless for another day.” Remus looked up at his lover and leaned down for a kiss. “Come on, show me where are all the supplies.”

***************

Harry felt a pang in his chest. He never really thought about the Sirius and Remus of before he met them. How they lived and who they loved. Well that was obvious now. Did they get back together after Azkaban? What had made Sirius distrust Remus if they were together? He sighed. There wasn't anyone to ask, anymore.

“Can I take a look...” Harry trailed off, nodding at the bag.

“Of course,” Teddy said, giving the bag to Harry.

Harry looked through the books, while they drank their tea, finding more notes. He could almost picture his godfather and former Professor writing the notes and the more he read, the more comfortable he felt with the idea of them together.

He left the book with the note about him for last, but no other notes fell from it. He looked at every page and was about to close it when he saw Remus's handwriting on a smalpiece of paper attached to the last page of the book. It was so small it was hard to read, but he managed to get the words anyway.

“I have a son, Padfoot. It's the most incredible feeling in the world and now more than ever I wish I could have shared this feeling with you. I know how much you wanted it, too. I miss you.”

Harry swallowed hard. Hnever considered how much Remus suffered after Sirius's death. ’d been far twrapped in his own pain to notice. Now he wished he had.

He was fairly sure Teddy hadn't seen this last note and although he came to him looking for answers, Harry thought it'd be best if he didn't know that even after his birth, his father was still longing for his dead lover.

“Can I keep this one?” Harry asked holding up the book.

Teddy nodded, smiling weakly at his godfather, “You're Sirius's heir. These books are as much yours as they're mine.”

“Thank you. Are you all right about this, Teddy?” Harry asked concerned.

“Yes... yes I guess I am,” Teddy answered, his smile a little more real. “Sirius...” he started a little hesitantly, “how was he?”

Harry smiled back, remembering the man who spent so little time with him but still was the first family he had ever had. Where to start?

Comments

Thank you so much. I'm glad you liked it, even if it was sad.
Awww...that was rather bittersweet. But at the same time it felt really uplifting, the sense that Harry would always have the love of Sirius and Remus, and he could then pass the stories on to Teddy. I love how the notes traced the progress of Sirius's and Remus's relationship, from the days after the prank, to when they moved in together, and to the idea of forming a family, together. The final note was especially heartbreaking - I do wish Harry had thought to share it with Teddy, it is a part of Teddy's history after all.

Overall though, this was very sweet. Lovely! ♥
Thank you!

To me, both Sirius and Remus would always have a special place in Harry's heart. And that was why they were there with James and Lily in the end of DH. I'd like to think that Teddy would go to Harry when he wanted to know a bit more about his father.

I don't know if I'd have shared that last note with Teddy if I was in Harry's shoes. It was already a shock knowing his father loved another man, but that note would mean he was still in love with said man while he was married to his mother. Maybe you're right, though and he'd want to know anyway...
***BIG HUGS!!!***

THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH!!!!! I can't believe you wove in all the prompts: sharing books, Sirius having a coat for Remus to make sure he's not cold, sharing a kitty kat, my grin just got bigger and bigger...SOOOO AWESOME!

The story is so bittersweet...a flavor I find DELICIOUS!!!

Some favorites:
What caught Harry’s attention, however, was Teddy’s light brown hair, so like Remus's; it was always a sign that he was a little melancholy about his parents.
Wow. I can totally see this as a poignant way that a metamorphmagi's emotions would influence their appearance.

"Can you believe this git, Moony? I bet he never saw a real vampire or he wouldn't think they were that sexy. If they asked me I could tell with authority that werewolves are the sexy ones."
Yay, Sirius! With authority, indeed.

No matter how many notes they had exchanged, Remus still wasn't used to compliments.
Oh, Remus.

The only thing he wanted was to soak in a bath and sleep for ten hours. At least that was what he thought he wanted. and Remus grinned knowing it wouldn't take much to change Sirius's mind
I love how first Sirius changes Remus's mind and then Remus changes his!

The tips of his hair turned red as he looked down.
Eee! Metamorphmagi blush! So cool.

Harry's breath caught in his throat, as yet another note was handed to him.
I love how while Remus and Sirius were sharing books, by writing notes to each other they were shaping a story of their own, that is now being passed down to those who love them.

At the sound of the door opening he felt his heart start to race and cursed himself for being so impulsive. It was done now and he'd have to deal with it.
HEE! I suspect Sirius finds himself in such situations all the time.

He sighed. There wasn't anyone to ask, anymore.
“Can I take a look...” Harry trailed off, nodding at the bag.

Oh, Harry. Sigh.

remembering the man who spent so little time with him but still was the first family he had ever had
Exactly! Their time together was brief but no less meaningful for either of them.

Thank you again!!! I enjoyed and appreciated the story very, very much.

Best wishes for a great end to 2009 and lots of happiness in 2010!



P.S. I love the title, too. It can be interpreted in so many ways.
Thank you! I'm usually awful at titles, but this one I actually like. :)
Awww, thank you so much, hon. I'm so thrilled that you liked it this much!!! I wasn't sure if you'd like a next generation fic, but as soon as I had the idea of them exchanging notes through the books, and Teddy finding them, I had to write it. I'm so glad it worked for you.

And thank you also for the well wishes. I hope your new year started wonderfully. Happy 2010!
this is beautifully done :) I like seeing the next gen/Harry's gen in R/S fics, it adds an interesting dimension.
Thank you! I haven't read many next generation fics, but when I do it's always about Teddy finding out about Remus/Sirius. :)
Thank you so much. When I picked this prompt (R/S sharing books) I wanted to do something a little different than them having a shelf with books they both enjoyed, and this was what I came up with. I'm so glad it worked.
This was so lovely! I love how calm and accepting Harry was, despite his own shock, and that he was so willing to help Teddy get to know the man his father had loved. :)
Oh, hon. I'm so pleased that you liked my story. I think by that time Harry would have seen enough in life to appreciate that any love Sirius got in his life was good.

I have to confess though that the part about Teddy asking about Sirius was a last minute decision since I didn't know how to end the story. ;)

Thank you for commenting.
Oh, my dear, that was sad and lovely and exceedingly well done. I love the structure of it and how easily you moved back and forth between the present, the notes, and the flashbacks. It all felt very natural; almost like watching a movie.

In fact, I could very much see the two of them writing notes to one another and leaving them in books. Couples tend to fall into intimate little habits like that and it felt a very natural way of communicating for the two of them. And you had their voices down well, too.

I have to admit, though, there was a moment before the word "litter box," that I could only imagine exactly what Sirius had done. LOL.

This was cute and sweet and I love the way the R/S parts were framed with the story of Harry's encounter with Teddy. You also had them down well, especially Harry's feelings about Sirius.

I enjoyed this a lot.
This is beautiful. The structure works brilliantly, I LOVE the idea of them writing notes to one another and slipping them in books, and the ease of their relationship is lovely.
aww i've always had a thing for r/s writing each other notes and slipping them in books or beneath pillows, etc. how cute! and i like how you shifted between the notes in the present day and the past events that surrounded them. good job! :)
Lovely and bittersweet! Through the notes in books--R and S writing them, then Harry and Teddy finding them--you weave together two generations. Really touching and thought-provoking about parenthood as well as romantic love.

And as people have said above... yay for Teddy's hair expressing the feelings he might not put into words!
*sigh* So sad to think of the lives lost, both to prison and death, but at least this shows a time when they were happy and in love. I think that might even be more therapeutic for Harry than for Teddy. Lovely job!
Oh. OH.

This was heartbreaking and wonderful. I love that Harry had to find out about the relationship the same way Teddy did, and that last note just killed me.
BTW, your icon is FANTASTIC!
What caught Harry’s attention, however, was Teddy’s light brown hair, so like Remus's; it was always a sign that he was a little melancholy about his parents.

I could have cried. JUST CAUGHT ME OFF GUARD, IS ALL :( :( :( :(

This was so wonderful, you had a sweet idea and then carried it out with grace and beauty. And the ending! Seriously, I'm glad I'm in a good mood today, because this fic could have ruined me. SIGH.
*sniffles* What a lovely fic. It makes sense to have Harry and Teddy be the ones to share the notes, since Sirius and Remus were so important to them. Enjoyed!
Ah damn you! I can't cry at work *sniffs*. I'm not usually a fan of next gen stuff but the way this story weaved it all together was lovely. It is weird when you find out your parents had a life before you (although teddy probabyly has a very unique set of circumstances here lol). Again just to repeat what others have said the hair blush was so very cute. I also love that each note had a little back story attached, would have had to stalk you until you explained the notes!

Goes to add this to memories...
Oh, this is so lovely and sad! I love the idea of Sirius and Remus hiding notes in books for each other, and the last one from Remus about Teddy made me tear up.
This is brilliant! Love the idea of them passing notes to each other this way. :)
Lovely story and uplifting in it's own way. I like how Harry and Teddy bond as they try to "discover" their roots without their parents.
The structure works beautifully here and I like how we don't "see" that much. You've left much for me to imagine.....
Awww, that last note made me all teary...this was so lovely, loved the idea. :)
The last one made me cry :( It was still a nice fic though but but... *sniff* D: